A dear friend emailed me from the US this week and simply asked how I was doing.
thank you for asking, friend.
(sometimes I want to cry when I think about how many friends have called or emailed asking the same thing - - but then again, I seem to cry about everything these days)
SO. here's the quick list of how I'm doing
1. I'm surprisingly stressed about setting up the house. buying so much so fast is not normal for me (I start to fear - - is it too expensive? is it so cheap that it will fall apart soon? do I really need this? will I regret buying this? I don't think I need that thing, but does my family need it? . . . and on and on. it's all jumbled up in my head and I start to hyperventilate and my mind goes numb . . . )
2. I'm enjoying meeting new people and eating new foods. . .
3. but sometimes meeting so many new people within such a short period of time overwhelms me.
4. and last week I almost had a meltdown in the grocery store because I recognized all the food products lining the shelves, but I just couldn't decide what to buy because it all seemed so out of my normal cooking habits.
aye.
I'm gloomy this morning.
thank you for asking, friend.
(sometimes I want to cry when I think about how many friends have called or emailed asking the same thing - - but then again, I seem to cry about everything these days)
SO. here's the quick list of how I'm doing
1. I'm surprisingly stressed about setting up the house. buying so much so fast is not normal for me (I start to fear - - is it too expensive? is it so cheap that it will fall apart soon? do I really need this? will I regret buying this? I don't think I need that thing, but does my family need it? . . . and on and on. it's all jumbled up in my head and I start to hyperventilate and my mind goes numb . . . )
2. I'm enjoying meeting new people and eating new foods. . .
3. but sometimes meeting so many new people within such a short period of time overwhelms me.
4. and last week I almost had a meltdown in the grocery store because I recognized all the food products lining the shelves, but I just couldn't decide what to buy because it all seemed so out of my normal cooking habits.
aye.
I'm gloomy this morning.
Oh, friend, I can empathize, moving to Kansas City has knocked everything that I considered "normal" out of normal. I, too, have been stressing about purchases and choices for our new house (because we sold and left so much in Idaho), a bit overwhelmed with the idea of finding new community, and trying to figure out how to do everyday life here. I know you are dealing with that on a whole different level because of the extreme nature of the changes you are experiencing. I wish I could give you a hug and take you to the flying M today. Please give yourself the grace for your brain and heart to catch up with your body. I'm praying for you today.
ReplyDeleteThanks for sharing so transparently, Naomi. I am thankful to be able to pray for you!
ReplyDeleteI love you! And I always feel like that about purchasing things for my house........always.......and I'm not operating in new cultures with lots of little ones and in a hurry. Sorry I'm not there to watch the kiddos, or come along shopping. That would seriously be SO fun.
ReplyDeleteaaah . . .I'm so thankful for you girls. Corey - yes! let's drop into the flying M (does tomorrow morning work for you?) Denise - thank you!
ReplyDeleteCarol - so, soooo fun!